The Year of the Brave – Page 9

Twenty Seven

March 21, 2013June 17, 2013 Tina 5 Comments

I turned 27 last Sunday. I’ve been trying to think of what to write about it (because like Valentine’s Day, I can’t not have a post about my birthday), but other than my dog’s passing, I can’t think of any. It’s not that my birthday was quiet or not spectacular — it was, actually. I guess it’s more of, I don’t really know how to start without writing a too long post that I’m pretty sure only IÂ would read.

So let’s ask questions instead (because I’m trying to get out of not wanting to ask questions). I will try not to make this post too long. There will be photos!

How was your birthday week?

It started with drama. Interesting, right? But it was also a very good learning experience (with tears, natch) that taught me my first lesson in turning 27: be mature. Maturity is a conscious decision;Â even if everything inside of me is screaming that I want my way and my way alone, I have to step back and give way. Like what I told someone that night — I have the most terrible sense of entitlement during my favorite month. Most terrible, I tell you, but turning another year older means that I have to start acting my age and compromise. Or if a compromise cannot be reached…then I just have to deal with it. Properly. And apologize if I need to.

But after that drama, everything else was quite…nice. Okay, nice is an understatement. It was all surprising and fun, filled with dinner meet-ups, surprises, books, pie and cake. Oh, and flowers. It was a very ~~nice~~ ~~awesome~~ splendid birthday week. :)

Not Quite that Valentine’s Post I Wanted to Write

February 14, 2013February 15, 2013 Tina 6 Comments

So I’ve been trying to wrap my mind around today, at this loss for words that rarely happens. I’ve been trying to prepare myself to write another Valentine’s Day entry reminiscent of last year’s (which is a favorite among many), but…there’s nothing. For the first time in the longest time, I don’t know what to write today.

I was whining about this to my best friend yesterday and she said, “Then don’t write anything.” But it’s like…I can’t. Especially now that I’m trying to embrace my inner romantic, so much that I’m trying to write a romance novel(la) this year and moderating a romantic short story/book discussion in our book club. I’m trying not to fear being vulnerable and I’m trying to love fiercely and freely, because that’s what brave hearts do, right?

But…nada. I can’t think of anything.

Or maybe I just feel that I’ve written about love (what I know of it, anyway) so many times here that I feel like whatever I write now is redundant. But is it? I mean, will we ever run out of words to use when talking about love?

See you next year, January

January 31, 2013January 31, 2013 Tina 1 Comment

Would you look at that, it’s the end of January.

I usually feel sad whenever January is ending because it means one thing to me: the freshness of the New Year is really and truly over. I wrote about it a few years ago, and I feel that there’s a special kind of despair that hits me at this time of the year because I often feel that I haven’t done much progress with what I set out to do in the year. Then I cheer up because the end of January means that I’m closer to my birthday.

I don’t know if I’m just feeling optimistic now, but I actually feel okay with January ending. This month was actually good, despite the times when I was hit with quarter-life crisis and some asthma. Maybe this is me growing up? Maybe this is choosing to be happy? Or maybe it’s because February’s going to be busy, and there’s so many things to look forward to in the following weeks, so why not get it started as soon as possible, right?

Momentum. I thought about that earlier, while I was thinking of something to post. It feels like the steps I took in the past month is some way of building momentum for the rest of the year. I’m not the kind of person who takes huge steps or bounds just like that, but I’d like to believe I’m the kind of person who takes a little while to build momentum. If I take too long, I would end up not doing it, so I’m trying to not fall into that trap. I’d like to believe that this year, I’m building the right momentum ((Did I get my Physics term right? :D)) to get to a strong finish by the time 2013 ends.

And then we start all over again.

Look at me, thinking of the end of 2013 at the end of the first month of the year. One day at a time, Tina.

So, January is ending in my timezone in a couple of hours, and I’d like to say thanks. It may be shallow of me to do that, but I’ve learned that you can never be too grateful over the things that happen in your life everyday. So thanks, January. :)

I’ve got a busy February coming up, but I don’t mind. I have a feeling it’s going to be a very, very exciting month ahead. :)